You always hear about teenagers who want to move out as soon as they are 18. They don’t like living in a house that has rules, or curfews. They want the freedom to come and go as they please, without a single care about what their parents think. Sound familiar? Lol thats because that is the way a majority of people now a days thinks. Is that wrong? Im not sure I guess that all depends on the person.
My story is a bit different than that. Growing up and all through high school I never thought about running away or moving out, as many of my friends did. Why people would even think of that was beyond me! For me I was the most happiest when I was at home just relaxing.
My guess is that the environment in which one lives is has a lot to do with it. I am blessed that my parents are still married, they may not have the perfect marriage, but they are still together. My older sister and brother moved out years ago, so really it was only me and my younger sister who lived at home. Since my parents are never home due to work (which I am extremely grateful for) it was mine and my sisters job to take care of the house. In that sense I guess it was like living on our own lol the only difference was that we did not pay rent. We grew up to be very independent in the sense that we really didn’t need anyone to take care of us, we learned to keep the house clean, to cook, do laundry, to manage our parents check books, keep track of bills.
With all that being said rules were not really something that was talked about at my house. If you know me and my sister then you know that we are not all about going out and stuff like that. I’m 19, and know enough people to be able to get into clubs without an I.D and I never go! Its not that I am anti social or anything don’t get me wrong but that whole club scene just isn’t me. I didn’t have a curfew at my house, but never came home later than 10 pm. I have to say I was pretty much free to go as I pleased, without consequences. I rarely drink, I don’t do drugs .. well unless you call an occasional blunt once in a while a problem, which I definitely do not. With all that being said, why in the world would I want to move out and how am I going to be able to afford it!
My sister has been living in the bay area for years now and has always told me to move in with her to go to school. I always waived it off, never really took it seriously. My 2010 was full of ups and downs. I had three deaths, one family member and two friends. I thought I was okay, that I didn’t need anything but I was terribly wrong. It affected me more than what I had expected. It didn’t hit me until the end of the year. I got news that a friend of mine had been shot in a home invasion. I was devasted, I told my mother about it, but it was not really something I talked about in detail. For those subscribed to my YouTube channel then you know that the person I was dating pretty much cut me off without an explanation. I never got an “Im sorry” or even something as simple as a goodbye. All that time that I spent with him meant nothing obviously, everything I helped him meant nothing. That is not what hurt me at all, the thing that was the worst part was that for someone who claimed to always be “real”, was never real at all. I will admit that it hurt, more than I even want to admit to myself. And to top all that off I was waitlisted on all my classes at the junior college I was attending. Some end of the year lol.
One day I woke up and couldn’t help it anymore and just broke down. I don’t remember how long I even cried but it was just one of those days. Thats when I decided to move. I am grateful that my sister helped me. I applied to all the junior colleges in San Jose and surrounded areas and that was that. I drove over here, checked out the campus, and two weeks later here I am! Sitting my my sisters apartment writing this. It was something that I just needed to do, for myself. I will never admit this to anyone, but I needed to get out of that little town where everyone knew each other. I can’t say that I am afraid, or scared. Because I am used spending a lot of time by myself it doesn’t bother me. One thing that I can honestly say I miss is my sister and mother. I miss just going to their room and telling them about my day and all the drama that came with it. Now I have to worry about really being on my own .. sorta. Thanks to my sister, I had a place to live and someone to help me out. Also I thank her for supporting me. This place is so new to me! I don’t even know my way around the corner and back!
So with all this I just want to say to my readers, learn to appreciate everything you have. I know I have a lot of younger readers, and to them I say don’t be in such a rush to grow up! Everything will happen in its time, no need to rush it all! Enjoy the little things such as your siblings and life without worries. To those that are already on their own and with their own families, don’t forget about the people you grew up with! Dont forget to call your mother once in a while even if its just to say hi. Because those are the things that you will actually miss the most. This is probably going to be one of the most personal blogs that I will ever right thank you for reading my lovelies.
